The work comes before the belief (We know we're full of Sh$t)

ELD #39

Lately my partner and I have been feeling a little more alive than usual. Usual being the routine that is so easy to slip into. Anxious about a few things and just not feeling overly excited about stuff.

Which leads right into this main point: The work comes before the belief.

Why is Mia feeling more excited and less anxious? Because (let’s be black and white about this) she’s doing the required work to prepare for her workshops and feeling ready for them. In doing the required work, she’s found her mind has become more free to be excited about the classes. Which flows on to life in general.

Why am I feeling more excited and less anxious? Every day I write a power-list, but not every day the list gets done. I’ve been compromising on the list more often than not in the past weeks. But coming to this realisation, then taking action to make sure the list actually gets done creates a sense of clarity, excitement and enthusiasm for life. Because I’m aligning who I actually am with who I want to be.

We can’t expect to feel excited, feel a deep sense of belief about something until we are actually in motion doing the thing. Or we feel a sense of “oh I’m actually full of shit”. AKA Anxiety.

Of course I didn’t feel excited, I want to be on a specific path for my life, but wasn’t. I can’t trick myself, my subconscious can tell when I’m full of shit. Same for us all.

The only way around this is by taking action, actually being who you want to be, or in my opinion it should be expected that we feel anxious.

I get it’s not that simple when your feeling like shit just to do it. I of all people get that… But thats why I’m writing this letter, making these videos because I also know that it takes baby steps to begin the process again.

Then suddenly, only once walking the path yet again does motivation and belief come at me full force.

You start small, and build. That’s it.

What does not doing it look like?

For me its regret.

And the pain of trying is far better to have than the pain of regret.

So fuck it. What is it we need to be doing with our time to truly not have regret (or as little as possible)?

Whatever that is, go!

And hey, maybe you don’t feel this way. Lucky you, because I know for a fact I’ll be mad at myself on my death bed if I don’t go all the way in.

What if?

Fuck that.

Remember, the work comes before the belief. We shouldn’t expect to truly believe or feel super excited about what we are building until we are doing it.

Work now, feelings later.

Much love.

ELD x